The first thing I want is to move on from the emotional flashbacks from the pain I avoided over the years of my marriage. Constantly being emotionally manipulated and treated like shit caused me to avoid my feelings and now that I am safe they have all come flooding back. I want to be in a place where the past is in the past and I can enjoy the present more.
I fell and broke my leg 2 weeks ago and have 2 more months of down time. Once I have healed from this injury, I am hoping to get some house projects done, us moved under one roof and a vacation planned for the spring.
Career wise I hope there are opportunities for growth and advancement. I hope now that my personal life isn't so stressful, I can be more effective in my career and coach up my people to take on more responsibility.
Learning how to love in a healthy way is a blessing and uncharted territory for me. Hoping my relationship with my fiance grows in depth and becomes better with time. Its such a blessing to be heard and loved for who I really am.
Health wise I am hoping for improvement too. With less stress and avoidance drinking I am hoping the need for prescription meds goes away.
Looking forward to getting to be me and having the space and support to do so. I looked in the mirror the other day and see the dude there is happy and flourishing.
Finally, just living under one roof and getting settled into a new normal. Been a long haul with the old house, apartment, new house and fiances house. Ready for things to settle down finally. Even with all of the changes, I have hope for the future for the first time in my life and love the present. I know this will make me stronger and in a way saved my life.
